Im still talking to that guy. He is so awesome!!! I cant stop thinking about him. What's wrong with me!!!! Im suppose to see him saturday night. I hope i do. Im also suppose to be spending the night at my aunts house. That's how im going to see him. I got to talk to him last night, which was really awesome. He told me that he was moving for a while. He was staying in Kentucky for at least three years. That made me happy. He also told me that if he does move and were still talking then i was welcome to go with him. I probably would. He also told me that he missed me and that he couldnt quit thinking about me. I was like awwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!! I really like him and i hope that everything goes ok between us. I hope i can find a way to tell my parents about him. That's going to be a tough one.

Anyways

With the way gas prices are going i dont know if im going to be able to drive to school, and band. I might have to drop out, and i dont want to. I love band and i hate riding the bus. Did i ever mention that the marching band's first compition is on my birthday. That's going to be a fun one. oh yeah.......

I havent talk to him in a while. (My best friend.) I really hurt him. I dont know what to do about it. i cant please everyone. Just myself. I can only make my parents proud of me. Life sucks and i guess you have to deal with it. I like paul and im not in to him that way. i think everyone ive know has lost their first love, and so is he. Me. I feel as if i talk to him at all, it hurts him more. Maybe i should be come invisiable. Push my self out of his life. I dont need him, i just think i do.

Well i need to call Paul.........